Always pay attention when it does not feel right....

 Some of the words that threaten my whole existence are: suddenly, out of nowhere, change, regret, rush. He was 30 years behind schedule,  30 years older, almost as though they were a few time zones away from each other, conversation unrelated, friends worth a 2nd evaluation,  as days got more skeptical, nights dragged on for far too long. Maggie wondered everyday of her life how she had gotten herself in that mess!! She always said:"this time I will meet the one, in the house of the Lord." Well, she got what she wished for. All over a sudden Maggie is flown in and out for shopping, holidays in the most exotic places, showered with gifts everyday of her life, it all seemed like a dream come true or what we usually refer to as " it was meant to be" at times the devil will visit you when you list expect it. Maggie started losing control of her life, seemed to forget what she held dear, her values didn't make sense anymore and her energy focused somewhere else. Suddenly the difference between right and wrong becomes a blur and you begin making silly excuses for that which you always knew to be wrong. Suddenly she came to a realization that he wasn't right for her, unfortunately she might have been a little over a second late.The excruciating pain that she endured for the seeds that were never meant to be,are the regrets that she lives with today. Dear Maggie all abandoned at her time of need, it seemed as if everyone had disappeared and left her alone in the world. While she was left with no option in the events that followed, she still had a choice to make and I wonder whether she pulled through I still wonder how Maggie's story ends, did she still remain in the Lord's embrace despite all the wounds that were left by This man?  I pray that Maggie remembered that while her sins were great, the Lord's love is greater, and I hope she knew that the blood of Jesus was sufficient to make her whole again. My dear friends,Disappointment is a real place. Anytime we face a moment of despair, Jesus has no problem turning up in the middle of despair to bring hope. Isaiah 61:1-3 says; the spirit of the sovereign  lord is on me, because the lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the broken hearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the lord's favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion- and this is my favorite part, to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the lord for the display of his splendor. And that is the Divine exchange that happens in the midst of despair. All I know is that Jesus is real and works. I pray that Jesus meets you all at the point of your despair. I believe that if you have  ever felt worthless, God wants to bestow on you a new hope, and remove the things that have the ability to consume our minds with despair. God is in the business of taking our ashes and turning them into beautiful roses and he can do it for Maggie too. When the realities of life present them selves and u can neither change nor brag about them, there amidst  of your disappointment, Jesus gives us a garment of praise. The areas of life that have grown deem and colorless, He takes the deem and shines his light into our colorless lives and hence the spirit of hope. I would love to meet Maggie 5 years from today and see how far she got with all the uncertainty and betrayal she had just experienced, i wonder how her story ends, but I pray that the Lord's strength shines so bright on her journey.