Why are you striking the rock? Just speak to it!

It is in the early hours of a beautiful day down here in Cape Town. But before I go any further I bring you greetings from our heavenly father. My brothers and sisters I will be speaking to you about fear and the power of prayer. If you will allow me be honest with you, I have been a captive of fear for almost my entire life. I had fears of what tomorrow will be like, I freaked out at almost anything and everything. Even when I was really happy, I feared what would happen in the next minute when it’s no longer all gold and glittering. I once fell deeply in love with this guy and it was amazing I have to say that I was more than convinced that that was the happiest I could ever be. But I was still afraid of what would happen if he allover a sudden woke up and loved me no more. I am telling you my brothers and sisters that our mind is a strong thing. I harbored so many thoughts of how my relationship would go wrong, I even painted pictures in my head of so many scenarios about how it would all turn out and indeed it all came to pass. What I am trying to bring to your attention is that just like any other young lady, I have made mistakes. Apparently, the human conundrum suggests that it is very difficult to be a human and live along life and not make mistakes. What really disturbs me is the arrogance with which we talk about other people’s mistakes, seemingly having amnesia over our own. It is important to remember that once we seek repentance with a pure heart, god forgives us and learn to let go of you past and move with confidence into your destiny.

 Do not let your past keep you in fear, because once this keeps happening, even your faith in God will waiver. When I first decided to serve in church I felt like I was on some kind of marathon. And for me I felt like the more I do in the house of God then I would be earning God’s forgiveness. I did most of it out of duty and this went on for a few weeks, up until one day something hit me so hard and I had a horrible week, I could not open my mouth to pray and I have feeling that God was trying correct me and letting me know that am not just his vessel but am loved, am worth, that I have been forgiven and it was time to let go of the past fears. I was emotionally fragile for the remainder of that week I spoke to a friend of mine and she promised to pray for me. Am telling you that for that week I depended on my friends prayers because I felt so far gone from God that nothing I could say would make him listen to me. Have you ever felt like God has hidden his face from you and you are busy searching for even a small glimpse of his light but it got darker? I really felt lonely and the only thing I could do at that point was cry. I cried myself to sleep, I cried when I spoke to people I love; now the most embarrassing was when I saw Bianca one of the volunteers at church. I literally felt a huge weight come over me and I got over whelmed, tired scared it was just too many mixed feeling, but I was happy after that the all her encouragements. Over the next week I built a substantial amount of confidence in me, and I felt a presence of the most high whenever I opened my mouth to pray. So am encouraging you to let yourself feel all those different emotions that might at times come your way because they are meant to build a character that God desires to use for his greater purpose. 

I was reading a book recently and it said that; however threatening the circumstances may be, it is imperative that you not allow anything to usurp God’s pivotal role in your life. With him as the center you will be able to maintain your balance at all times. When your entire being is consumed by reverence and love for God, you will discover that fear no longer rules your mind. Uncertainty is replaced by trust. The worrying clouds might still be present, but you will see the silver lining, and you will know that, behind every cloud, there is still a loving father who works all things for your good. The word of God according to the book of Philippians 4:6-7 says that” do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your request known to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus”. Now I have said it before and I will still say it now that this is my favorite verse. It came to me at a time when I needed it most and each time I start freaking out my mind quickly begins reciting this verse. 

I am here to tell you that prayer is more powerful than we ever anticipated. In fact prayer is God’s gift to us and he desires for us to go ahead and receive it with great pleasure because that is his way of drawing us close to his presence. John 17:3 says; “now this is eternal life; that they know you are the only true God and Jesus Christ whom you have sent”. I am more than convinced that this is God’s way of telling us he desires interaction with us on a personal level. Speak to your God through prayer and be real. Don’t try to search for the most appropriate words to use, relax and say it like it is. A friend once told me that all our prayers go through Christ for editing before they get to God so do not be afraid that you might not have the right words. Just rejoice that God sees us worthy to have a personal relationship with him. Actually these words come to me at the very time when things might seem out of control at school. There is been ongoing protests that led to so much uncertainty with regards to the continuation of the current academic year. And it might be that you are also in the middle of all kinds of challenges it could be chaos, confusion or even desertion, I was reminded of this verse and I pray that it helps you too Philippians 4; 6-7. I literally sat and soaked in word by word and I decided how amazing would it be if I just thanked god in my times of trouble, And how amazing would it be if we stopped winning and complaining about the things that are going wrong in our lives and started thanking him for the blessing of prayer. I encourage you my brothers and sisters to keep your faith in the almighty because he has promised amazing things. Jeremiah 29;11 says “ for I know the plans I have for you, declares the lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all you heart.” I pray that you remember that god loves you and desires to use you at whatever stage you are. Don’t be deceived that there is some sorts of clean up you have to do before you turn to him, it does not matter where you were yesterday just come to him today. He says come the way you are and he will do things far greater than you ever imagined. I want to remind you today that you are all special men and women of god and he cannot wait for you to finally say this is it, I give you all my worries and burdens, lead me to where you created me to be. It is here that I come to the end of this discussion and I will speak to you very soon again but until then I love you all and God loves you even more. Stay blessed.